tonight [08 Apr 2007|09:37pm] highlights: i took off the side view mirror of car while driving past it. he shouldnt have been that far in the road tho. i took bianca to get a tattoo. it a playboy bunny. north prividence police cars are awesome. theyre dodge chargers. i think thats it. but it was fun hit me

awkward [07 Apr 2007|10:37pm] After bianca broke up with he boyfriend i figured it would be a good idea to go out to eat with some people from work. it was a bad idea. awkward to say the least. we drove about 45 minutes just to get there and no one really said nething to each other. im glad no one reads this because i can really say what i need to. bianca needs to get over it. im sick of listening to you complain. after tonight it feels so weird that i dont think i want to hang with or talk to her again. its strong but i just done feel like i should be in her "world." i think as soon as school ends im going job hunting and quitting CHM for good. Ive been there for three years, most of my high school career. i think thats its holding me back and preventing me from doing what i want to do. i feel like the job chains me too much. i think i just grew away from everyone. but maybe thats what i need, to move on. everything is so negative there. everyone who woroked there for longer than three years never became anything theryre all losers. i going to CCRI for two years then tranfering somewhere else. im done with johnston too. as soon as i can im moving to california, where i should belong. thats it. 1 bruise|hit me

wow [27 Mar 2007|08:33pm] i cant believe im writing in this thing again, its been a long time i think. So i finally got my car all set up with insurance and registration and I have had it for a week now. school sucks but only for a little while longer. I did a show the other day with cassie and other people i dont know but it was fun anyway. we got got taco bell and got lost as usual - we get lost everytime im driving. we went back to school for one level then the sister and i went to Mr Panther - interesting to say the least. Today i found danika oin myspace by accident and she remmebered that she still owes me dinner and a movie. maybe well do it when she comes down for easter. savannah helping me with my problems. but i cant let her go. im sorry. hit me

[31 Oct 2006|07:39pm] yes. i have a car. now to insure it... hit me

idk [25 Oct 2006|01:02pm] today is tuesday and ive been sick for the past three days. i feel like crap. im going back to sleep... 1 bruise|hit me

idk [19 Oct 2006|03:19pm] So I don't know if it is the smartest decision I have made, nor do i know if its my final decision (just my most likely); but i am not going to college - at least not yet. I'm not ready for college. I know a lot of people say that because they never want to leave high school, but that's not the reason. I have no reason to go to college...other than a good education and a good job...but nothing appeals to me. I don't want to be a lawyer or a doctor. I want to be an actor. So maybe I will take the road less traveled and run away to NY and start a career. Maybe I will become a dead-beat bum living in the dark allies of the city, but I'd rather die trying to do what I want than suriving and being unhappy. I want a big house, I want fame, I want fortune, I want a nice car...I want a lot of things but the only way I will get there is through an acting career. Maybe I'll sleep on it.... 2 bruises|hit me

[06 Oct 2006|02:46pm] Yesterday was a horrible days. one of those where if elt like giving up on everything. first off, i didnt make battle of the classes so im pissed off about that.i got even more pissed about it because one kid got picked for battle of the classes but didnt even wanna do it! so he dropped out and the alternate took his place but now we have no alternate. so if someones get hurt wrere screwed. its pissed me off too because there were four other people who could have had a chance to get on it but were screwed over. nobody knows how to do nething right. so i was walking to work yesterday, because i have no car. i was walking past the church (basically in front of it) when i saw these idiot kids driving some shit box balck car like maniacs. i didnt think anything of it until i pegged with an egg. yes, i got egged walking to work at 415 in the afternoon. who the fuck even thinks about doing that? especially in fromt of a church? so uve been wishing on my stones that i will somehow get on battle of the classes. it kinda worked because when i wished on them last night i found out that that kid was dropping out, so hopefully someone will fill his place (hopefully me). todays pay day. i wish i would win the lottery or something. i neeeeed a new car despritely. i have no life without it. i igned uo for the SATs finally. well im out ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ hit me

[04 Oct 2006|02:06pm] so today is tuesday. school was okay i guess. i didnt think i would like my classes but i do now. prob my favorite schedule to date. i think im gonna sign up for SATs after i write this lol. no, i still havent taken them. although i found a pair of glass yesterday at work so i get a $50 bonus in my paycheck. clean. lol. so after reading Cassie's live journal, i think her ideas are right on. high school is the point in time where u discover who you are and all the cliche crap. lucky her, she's discovered it earlier than a lot of people. You have to take each day as it comes, fuck the haters, screw the non-believers, concentrate on your own dreams, and realize that the only people in your life should be the people who will stick by you regaurdless. And despite what a lot of people say, cuz they have said it to me too, change is inevitable. Stop telling someone they have changed. It happens. get over it. so kudos to cassie. 1 bruise|hit me

[27 Sep 2006|02:36pm] Things are gettin crazr lately but I can't escape them anymore becaue I have no car. I need to a get a new one but I have no money; things keep comming up as usual. I hate how everytime I write in this I sound like Im whining. All well. I hope I can keep up my grades, I have A's in all of them so far. I need to get into college. Which one? I have no idea. I don't even know if I'm going to take a year off or something. Or maybe I'll end up CCRI and not even go to a college. Or maybe I'll get famous before then and fly away and make movies. not likely. Oh well. to look forward to: Homecomming!! Battle of the Classes (I better make it on) Float Competition (we better win) Homecomming dance (ill be cruunk) King and Queen (I hope I win) Parade (hopefully it wont rain again) Homecomming game (proably won't win) thats it. im done with rambling... hit me

[21 Sep 2006|10:40pm] So stress has been my worst enemy lately. I thought senior year was supposed to be fun? Definitly more competition this year. I have yet to take my SAT and I have to apply for college! I'm lost without my car. I cant get anywhere and K-scope is getting sick of having to pick me up, and i can't really blame them because i know im beggining to be a nuscence. they have plenty of other people there and can very easily replace me. kinda pisses me off knowing that tho. i just realized today that i wasnt even that good. mikee got really good compliments today tho :) I though the director was talking to me at first cuz we were both standing next to each other but he quickly clarified that. i don't know. maybe the theatre thing isnt for me. maybe ill stick to consessions. lol. i dont know. i have no idea what to go to college for now. teaching is over-rated and there aren't enough jobs and clearly im not good in theatre. maybe because i keep think im being filmed like tv or something. idk. but thats kinda how i read the scripts. but theyre supposed to be more...something...idk...maybe i just realized that im not good at anything. LMAO. im a loser! work sucks as usual. i need a new job. i hope things improve soon. im getting sick of the stressssss. hit me

[19 Aug 2006|03:33pm] So a week from today I will be at with Psychic Astrologer who is going to tell me things. Supposebly she will tell me about my life, the path and crap by just my name, birthday, and time I was born. Debbie said she was really good. Im just afraid of what she's going to tell me. She is supposed to tell me what my ultimate path is supposed to be and what career path I'm supposed to take. I'm curious as to what she has to say about the past though...the whole parent thing. IDK. Maybe I'll write down what she tells me on my live journal. Idk. So school starts in a week and a half. crap. Senior year. Let's make it mean something. hit me

[12 Aug 2006|03:19pm] So today is saturday...i think. Sunday: That was too long ago. Monday: So was that. Tuesday: I was going to go to the show at RIC but didn't have enough energy cuz i didnt feel good. No one was there that I knew anyway. Wednesday: I woke up at five am to get ready to go to Kaliedoscope theatre. I was supposed to be there for 5:30 so i did about 70 down atwood ave so yes, i did get there at exactly 5:30. I went in Nikki's car with Meredith while we drve two hour to the Chevrolet theatre. It was only me and Nikki so we unloaded and packed the van practically ourselves with help from ONLY Meredith. I sold consessions for a few hours. There were little kids crying because we sold out of practically everything. There were no more "light up things" that all the parents were begging for. Idiots. It was mad funny. Although I heard a story about the Cinderella show during the holiday season where Bob had to run to wlamart to get things to sell. Lmao. Me and Nikki were happy, we only had two consession boxes to pack up in the van. Thursday: Pay Day. That was the highlight. More work. Friday: I slept until twelve like evey other day. I argued with my parent about college and how I want to go to Juilliard even though its over $40,ooo per year. But im trying to get into a NY college no matter what. Adios RI and these damn accentas that we were cursed with.I went on my computer to download old power rnager episodes which i watched for four hours until i had to go to work. I went to work, same shit different day. I had to set up the dining room because believe it or not, Fred really can't set it up. I hate him. Then I went homw and watched more power rnager episodes then went to sleep. Saturday (today): I woke up and went to work. Then at two thirty i screwed to pick up my sister at work, then we wnet to rent dvds. Im am now on a hour and a half break, its only supposed to be a half hour. all well, i dare them to fire me. So in conclusion, this is probably the worst summer ever. Things to do/remember: - College search - New job - New shoes - New clothes i just dont feel like doing any of these. hit me

[30 Jul 2006|09:48pm] Tuesday: A different version of Cassi's. I went to RIC to watch the show like i do every tuesday of the summer (starting this summer). Cassi went and so did a bunch of friends that i dont know. So we made plans that i would meet at her house the next morning to drive with them to the Cape. Cassi called me later and asked me just to sleep over so it would just be easier. So i went to Kaliedoscope to pick up Kat and Cassi but realized that I had to pick up Joe too... Then we went to CVS so the girls (and guys i guess) could get makeup for the show. I got pissed off so I went back to the car and waited for them. The we drove all the way back to Kat's house for something and probably woke the neighborhood because Kat's parents thought someone was breaking in. At Cassi's house (whether she notices or not) Cassi was talking to just joe the whole time (and getting to close for comfort). None of us really get along with each other. we're mostly just connected to Cassi, although me and Kat have been getting closer. i was ignoring Cassi but i dont think she got the message. we're cool now. We watched Will and Grace in the living room. How that show relates to real life his fukkin hilarious. Joe and Cassi curled up in a dog bed and me and Kat layed on the fold-out bed. Then we watched the notebook. Cassi and joe were bawling their eyes out and me and Kat were laughing. oh well. So that was that. Wednesday: We woke up. Actually i was woke up at about four thirty because Cassi decided she wanted to make a cd at the computer right near where i was sleeping. idiot. jk then i woke up a little later and Cassi was screaming like she was being raped. I guess her and Joe were pretending to be demons or something. Then we got in the car to drive all the way to the Cape. I sat in the front and slept alot of the time. we were over an hour late too. Cassi was pissed. We got there we set up we had the show we and kat got yelled at for trying to steal pizza then we went to a seafood restaurant. i had salad because i hate seafood. then we went to a motel...and u know what happens at motels...we played pool! CAssi beat both me and Kat because we let her win. the we played mini golf. we have some cool pictures. Miss pacheco won out of everyone. CAssi walked through some water. idiot. jk. E ahd fun. then a two hour ride to Cassi's. then a twent minute rie to KAts. then a five minuter ide to my house with a detour at burger king. long day. Thursday: Pay day. thats all i remember. Friday: What did i do friday? Today: Got up at 10:15, dropped my sister off at work, then went to work my self. Bianca bitched at me as usual because i make "dirty remarks" by playing with my toungue. We were short people at work so we didn't finish the line until past six. Then we had to go to a in-service about abuse and stoking breasts (although those were the only two words i picked up throughout the entire lecture). I was talking to debbie the psychic as usual and she's almost making me go to this astologer because she's thinks that I'm lost. she doesn't thinnk that i know what I want to do after school (true) and she's not sure that I know of anything really. so I have to call her and set up a time to meet with her. hit me

[23 Jul 2006|02:58pm] My sister cut my hair last night. I think it look pretty good. I've been thinking lately. (normally this would result in insanity but not this time) I've been coming to the conclusion lately that i have changed so much over the past two years. My boss at work use to say it to me and I would get offended but now I realize that he was telling the truth. I use to be this quiet kid who would hold everything inside and try to pretend like nothing bothered him. I use to be afraid of what people thought of me and afraid of what would happen if I took a chance with something. I use to be jealous of what other people had because I didn't possess what they did. I use to live in the past and get pissed because everything around me was changing. Slowly I've come to the realization that it wasn't everything around me changing, it was me. Slowly but surley I've been letting go of adolescence and coming to the senses that I have to take a chance if I want anything in life. I've realized that the people who have been with me through thick and thin are the one who will always be by myside. I've finally realized what I wanted all along. hit me

[22 Jul 2006|08:23pm] So I have been hanging out with Cassi a lot recently. I guess we have a lot of things in commo tho. Like, we both don't know how to get to Johnston from Wickford, we both love acting, we both are AWESOME at consessions and we both believe in things that most people don't (noone can touch my rocks, except for one person..haha) Anyway, I have an audition on tuesday for an agent. nervous. I hope everything goes my way. Well im off to friendlys... hit me

[16 Jul 2006|11:43pm] Things have been changing lately. I think I might like it better this way. But what would happen if things stayed the same? hit me

[14 May 2006|06:19pm] so despite everything that went wrong at first, Junior prom was awesome. We took pictures at my house that will probably be hung up by Ms. Pacheco in her classroom to embarrass us...jk...The room was huge and everyone had fun. No mash poatatoes were thrown across my table...Cassi and Rach thought that they were too good to throw. IM short so cassi had to take the picture with her shoes off. Cassi's dress was really nicee, i wasnt sure about the color when i got the sample to get the tie, but it really was nice. the party bus was really cool, i dont think it was worth that much money but it was really nice. Im happy though, she has my picture first on myspace...;) I made court! Red was honored king even though he doesnt deserve it and Jenna won QUEEN! im happy for her, that was the plan. the court included, Derek, Malcom, Steve, Me, Red as king. The girls were Alicia, Dorothy, Brittany, someone else who has no importance, and QUEEN JENNA. My birthday is tuesday so I hope no one forget about it. I like gifts ;) jk work in tha am. im going to sleep now. Florida soon!!!!!! still thinking about her</> hit me

[10 May 2006|08:52pm] I should be working on english. but im not. i dont want to. I hate two people. I wanna smash their faces. So prom is friday. i have everything except the limo paid for. woot. Who will get king....haha...hmm. Countdown: 2 days ~ prom 6 days ~ birthday 7 days ~ florida I love her hit me

[03 May 2006|09:04pm] Ive decided to take a break from my holocaust essay to write. So im writing. Holocaust is twenty pages. Cass has her dress. Its teal?? I dont have a tux. nor a limo. or a haircut. or flowers. its next week. way to be on top of things huh? o and insurance is due soon. and the phone bill. and im going to florida in two weeks. i have to ge senior pics soon. I have to take SATs. I have to fill out my college application for MCLA. So i guess im gonna end this and try yo work on getting some of these done. oh boy. hit me

[27 Apr 2006|09:08pm] So what happened today??? Skitt pissed me off because she wouldn't sign honors English for me. I am the only one she didn't sign it for yet the only one who will major in English. Maybe its better. I don't care. I want to go to MCLA so I filled all my classes in with Chorus, theatre, and journalism. I looking forward to chorus. I haven't been in chorus in three years. I miss it. Newspapers done. we finished at about 3 today. Marisa made me take her damn project home in my car. For what I ask? Damn thing. I threw it in my trunk. I hope it breaks. She's been pissing me off too. Work was stupid. State was thre so all the drinks were frozen, trucks were late (for us, took forever to strip all the trucks...long story. And most recent I learned that Cassy is really spelled Cassi. :) im out. Countdown: 15 ~ Prom 20 ~ Florida Trip 19 ~ My B-Day hit me

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